crazy, tragic, sometimes almost magic...

Wow, so I'm home from Nashville, and already feeling lousy. I hate coming home after weeks like that with my friends. I figure I can do a recap of sorts, in as little detail as possible...but I'm pretty bad at little detail. Anyway.

The week started out well, with a little Randy Rogers and Wade Bowen on Wednesday. There were a few downfalls before the show, but we'll pretend they didn't happen. :) I was so excited to see a couple of my favorites, Emily and Hailey....I had so missed them, and how crazy we can be together! The show was KILLER. I think all of us, at least once, said we could marry Randy. He was super hilarious. And, not to discredit Wade, he was lovely as well...trouble SHOULD always look as good as it did that night. Also ran into Ashley Ray at the end of the night...poor girl, always sees us at our drunken best. ;)

After the show, Kevin showed up...and we went to Crossroads to meet up with Blake and Miranda, and they got up and played a couple of cover songs...it was really fun, what I remember of it. I also ran into Aimz, she lives in Hawaii, so I hardly ever get to see her!! I was so excited! After that, I got dropped off at Losers, and met back up with my girls...such a perfect first night in Nashville!

Thursday, I didn't do a whole of anything really. Slept in late, and then basically just laid around all day until it was time to get ready for the nightly shows. I saw Reba, then the rain ruined the rest of the LP Field shows, so Lyssa and I caught a bus back downtown and headed to The Rutledge once again, this time to see Eric Church! It was kind of an a more broken down, acoustic type show, but it was SO good! Had a lot of fun with Emily, and Nick came too!! I was having such a good time with my friends, I'd missed them so much! After the show, Lyssa, Em, and I went downtown, and walked around aimlessly for the most part. We then, "snuck" into the end of Blakes FCP at the Wildhorse. Thats all I'll say about that too.

Friday, was also a day of sleeping in late...okay, not going to lie, everyday was a day of sleeping in late, because we stayed out like rockstars, all hours of the night. But, we did manage to get around and go see Randy Rogers and Ashton Shepherd at the riverfront. Both, SO GOOD! I love good, true, country music, it makes my life better! :) Especially with my favorites. After that, we just hung out, and then went to the night shows again. Was so glad to see Lady Antebellum on that big stage again!! Was so disappointed that Kid Rock closed the show though, I think he is uber talented, but not to close a country festival! Went downtown again that night and went to The Spot, free drinks, hell yeah.

My days are so mixed up after this point...but one day, we did a Hailey Faith photoshoot. We had SO much fun! Found ourselves a pretty field, with a no trespassing sign, and it was perfect!! So happy with how they turned out, and had such a fun day with Hailey!

Also did dinner with Meredith who I hadn't seen since this time last year! We ate at Demos, and it was so good! Earlier that day, we'd gone to the Pfunky Griddle with Emily, Hailey, Lyssa, and Brandi, which was also so much fun! Hadn't seen Brandi since I met her at the Tayla Lynn show in Tulsa, so I really enjoyed catching up!

Saw a full, live, and electric band, Erich Church show on Saturday, and it was ROCKIN! I could see him every night, for the rest of my life, and I'd be okay with that I think, loved it!!

The next morning I met up with Meredith at the riverfront to see Joey+Rory, I think they are so talented! Then, I finally saw Blake, and we got our annual Fan Fair pic, love that boy!! Sunday night, we went to the Coliseum to see Jack Ingram, and Miranda...in all her stompin glory! Love that girl, and it really made me want more!! After that, Lyssa and I left, with Chris, and then we met up with Emily. The four of us enjoyed some drinks, and I was so happy to see Chris, it hadn't been THAT long I guess, but it seemed like forever...I hate not knowing when I'll see him again. I think party panties disappointed Mr. Newsom just a little bit, but we were all so damn tired from partying the rest of the week. Great way to end the week though.

More than anything, I just loved the time I had with my friends!! I couldn't ask for better ones, even though they are all miles away. :) I miss every one of em already!


Crazy good, crazy bad, crazy strange, crazy wild week in Nashville. Oh, it is love.

here she comes a walkin, talkin true love...

No wonder I could never really keep a journal as a kid, I can't even keep up with an online one, when I'm online everyday!

Lots has been going on since I last posted. I finished the semester, passing all of my classes. Yay! This one was kind of a tough one for me, but I pushed through. I somehow managed to make lots of overnight concert trips in between, and still get up and go to class. I swear, I'm meant to be in the music business, or on the road...its just running through my blood. One more year!

Had a good weekend at the lake with my family. The sun wasn't out as much as I'd of liked, and the lake was up pretty high from the 29 days of rain here in Oklahoma, but we still managed to float a little, and go to the pool, once it opened on Sunday. I ate way too much, and haven't been able to not eat since I've got home...I have to stop being a fat ass! Also finished a great book called McKettricks Choice over the weekend. I hadn't actually found a book I could read all the way through in a couple of days in such a long time, so it was great to have a good read!

Watched The George Strait special tonight. I thought overall it was so good! My favorite performance was probably LAW and Jamey Johnson doing "Give It Away," as well as LAW's tribute song to George. Of course, I thought Blake and Miranda were awesome too. I enjoyed most of the acts, other than Jamie Foxx, who is just ridiculous in my opinion. I mean really, enough is enough. I'm sick of that man, why is he invited to all the country events lately?

I'm super anxious for Nashville and time with my friends in a couple of weeks! Yahoo!

Thats all for now.

its that kinda daaaay.

I have just not had a good day at all. I went to campus today at noon to take my African American studies final. This class has been online the entire semester, but the final exam had to be proctored up at the school. Anyway, I got there at noon and the server was down, so i waited, and waited, and waited...and finally at five o'clock, i was able to take the test. It was worth 225 points, which is like an insane amount of points, and will make or break the class for me, literally, my fingers are crossed.

Some shit hit the fan with some "family" tonight. It made me realize how thankful I am to have been raised so well. To not be crazy, and to really, whole heartedly love my family, in good times in bad. To never have to question whether or not they love me, and to never have to feel like I am an outcast. I really hope this girl gets help, because that is truly what she needs. I'm not really sure that she can ever get better, but being put in a place where people know how to help her, is what she truly needs. For the sake of my family, for the absolute sake of my six month old baby cousin who is currently in the same household as her. I stress out about this, and prayers are so much needed.

I'm really irritated with some things in my life right now. I feel so much lately like I am just the middle person; or the person who introduces people, and they the people I introduced all end up really liking each other, and then I'm kind of thrown on the backburner or something. I'm always the go-to girl. The girl that everyone comes to for advice, but sometimes thats all they come to me for. I dont mind it, because I love helping people, but it is just so frustrating sometimes to not get the same thing in return.

I'm also so crazy when it comes to the people I am attracted to. I dont know why I pick the people that I have absolutely no chance with. And, even though I know I don't, I continue to pursue it in my mind, like maybe one day I might. I need to change my standards, or meet new people, or something. I don't know, I have a bad problem with this. Everyone thinks I'm crazy when it comes to picking men, and I guess I have to agree, I don't know whats wrong with me. Maybe I'm just in love with the thought.

Tomorrow is the last day of finals. I have a Comparative Religion exam at 9:30, and Research Methods at 12:30, then I am so free for the summer. I have lots of ideas and destinations in my mind. I also have a celebration lunch with Jennifer H. after finals tomorrow, yay...love her crazy ass!

Okay, I gotta go bookmark some stuff in my 3 Religions books, I should have studied way earlier. I'm so terrible at this study stuff, even during finals.

Peace.

well hello.

I'm taking this absolute free moment to catch up. I feel like everytime I do actually blog in this thing, I am catching up, because I just don't find the time to write in this thing as much as I would like. Probably because when I'm not busy, I'm sleeping...for long amounts of time. That can't be good, I think I need to start taking my vitamins again.

It is so close to the end of this semester. Just six more classes, and I am so out of college, forever, amen. I've taken lots of tests, and written lots of papers, and prepared for a few presentations. I've only presented one, thus far, have a couple in the next couple weeks. I thought I did good on the one presentation I have done, but evidentally not, according to my professor. I just wasn't happy with a C...even if it was a high C. I feel like he really slammed me on even the points that I felt were strong. Oh well, I'm done with that class, and finishing with a B, so I'm not even going to worry with it.

I've had some interesting conversations with different people lately. And, I've come to the conclusion that guys are really f*ing weird. I mean, really...you would hope that they would grow out of it, but basically, they don't...if anything, they get weirder. But, they can make for good entertainment.

I've also discovered that I should not drink and dial. Usually, I have to get onto Lyssa for doing this, because she texts the most ridiculous stuff when she drinks...but I seem to have hopped on that train. Eeek.

Eric Church + Ashley Ray tomorrow. A much needed little getaway with Lyssa and Casey...but I wish my Nashville girls were coming with us!!! I have to find something to wear, ha.

As I am typing this, I just looked down at my fingers and kind of gagged at my nails. Yuck, I know chipped black nail polish is in, but not one of my nails is entirely painted, but about four of them have basically no polish on them, I think I might go fix that right now.

Aw, the Miranda, cotton commerical just came on. She is just so pretty, love it!

peace, holla.

April!

Once again, I have gone for ages without updating this thing. I think I'm really bad at online blogging! These next three or four weeks are going to be really hectic for me, with finals approaching. I have three tests this week, and three oral presentations in the following two weeks. Kind of makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. But, I met with my advisor on Friday, and I am six classes away from graduating. It sucks that I'm behind, and should be graduating in a couple of months...but, I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel, so I'm ecstatic! =)

ACM's were last night! I just don't know, I never find myself to overly impressed with the Academy anymore. There were a couple highlights: Jamey Johnson winning Song of The Year, Miranda Lambert premiering "Dead Flowers" which was just amazing; and Mr. Kevin Post getting to play that small little acoustic number with Blake!! The two did such a great job together, and I'm so incredibly proud of Kevin, yayyyy!!

I'm really looking forward to some shows coming up here in the next month or so...lots of great, cheap shows! Gotta love it!

Anyway, life is good. =)

Good Music, Iowa, Pop Quizzes...

I'm sittin here in the school computer lab, listening to a new Ashley Ray demo, called "Chasing Cowboys" and holy woah, I feel like the girl is always singing my life story. She is amazingly talented beyond belief.

I had an absolutely great weekend in Iowa! I really don't think there is anything better than seeing my friends I don't see nearly enough, I don't know that I could ever put a limit on the miles I'd go just for Saturday nights with those friends. However, Jack and I might have to take a Ross and Rachel, "we were on a break" moment for just a little while. I would have rather not wanted to spend the time in the hotel room asleep, instead of being crazy with Hailey, Emily, and Lyssa...but it happens. One day I'll learn.

I'm sad that weekend is over, and I can't wait for spring break in Nashville.

Moving on to the freakin' week, bleh.

I had a pop quiz in my Comparative Religion class today, it was tragic. Seven questions, one after one, I could write nothing down...finally on Question 4, I put, "I obviously haven't read this chapter yet!", ha, I'm sure the prof. laughed at that one. I did know one question though, "What is Nirvana?" Thank goodness for my love of music, I remembered watching a special on Nirvana or something, thus, I knew the meaning. Lucky for me, the prof. told us afterwards that the quiz was not for credit...I think he just wanted to scare us. I'll be more prepared for the next one.

Thats all for now.

lets play catch up.

I haven't written in nearly a month, thats pretty sad. Things have been pretty busy lately, with classes and work, followed by homework, and sleep. I'm honestly so ready to finish this college thing and move on. I know people say these are supposed to be the best years of your life, but I have not been convinced in the slightest. Maybe its my school, or maybe its just me, either way, I'm ready for a big change.

My Comparative Religion class, does, however, seem that it might be somewhat interesting. The subject itself anyway. It should be neat to learn about different religious traditions and cultures. The prof. is really a fun guy, but kind of all over the place when it comes to lecture. Maybe I should start writing in pencil.

I really need a good book to read. Anything really, besides for that Twilight stuff. I guess I never was one to follow trends, especially about vampires. I'm sure its a great collection, but not for me. I want to find something that will fascinate me, that I won't be able to put down for hours. I haven't found a good book like that in a long time.

I missed The Office three weeks in a row. I can't believe this. I really need to catch up.

Wow. This blog is all over the place.

On an end note, I think we are experiencing a big change in the world. But, we must remain hopeful. Together we can make it. --A little Hanson for your hearts. I love this song.

"Great Divide"

The earth is shaking under siege
And every breath will meet it's fate
Still we hunger for a moment of freedom
Even though the hour is late

I find hope and it gives me rest
I find hope in a beating chest
I find hope in what eyes don't see
I find hope in your hate for me
Have no fear when the waters rise
We can conquer this great divide

When every eye is on the fortune
It can only breed contempt
They say blood is thicker than oceans
Still we box our brothers in
I find hope and it gives me rest
I find hope in a beating chest
I find hope in what eyes don't see
I find hope in your hate for me
Have no fear when the waters rise
We can conquer this great divide

new year.

I cannot believe my winter break is almost over. I can't so much say that I have done anything too particularly useful over the past month, but I can say that I have enjoyed every little bit of the nothingness.

I am however, in some fashion, ready for the new semester to begin. Mainly so that I can pass the time quicker, without out sitting on my butt, eating peppermint kisses, drinking shiner, and watching three complete seasons of Weeds, because that my friends, is what I have done the past month.

Also, because I am just really ready to embark on a new year, try new things, meet new people. I know there are some parts, and some people, that encompassed me so much last year, over the past few years even; and I just have to let some of them go. This year, I'm going to try and let go of some of my insecurities. I want to learn it is okay for NEW things. I want to get in shape, like for real, in shape; my junior year of high school, i could run six miles without stopping...now, i'd give myself a big hooray if i could run six blocks! I want to try and not sweat the small things, they just aren't worth the stress. I also plan to convince myself that I am in fact a very good catch (in an un-arrogant manner); and that this good catch is so much better than she gives herself credit for. There's a perfect timing for everything...even meeting that person you want to spend your days with. Someone told me that I'm supposed to make this "list" of what I want in a guy, and stick to it; but to be very careful, because we just might get what we wish for. This is the beginning of my list:

-Someone with a personality just as weird as mine. This is needed for understanding humor and sarcasm, which I exert very often.

-Someone who has that killer, catch me from across the room, kinda smile. Not that hey, i'm a pervert, come on over smile...bad thing to confuse the two.

-Someone who is very family oriented. I am absolutely close to my family, Sunday dinners with the family are one of my favorite things. Although, I don't want his family closeness to be so strong that it crosses out my family time, that could be a problem.

-Someone who is okay with just staying in sometimes. Its okay to just stay in, snuggle up, and watch movies all night. We don't have to do something fancy every night.

-Someone that loves God. The power of faith is an amazing thing. I have to have someone who can share that trust and faith in God with me.

-Someone who has a strong passion for music. Music is a huge part of my life, concerts, and traveling must be something that he loves...or at least is willing to tolerate with me.

....to be continued.



Thats all for now.